Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Launching and Longing

We sang this song in church on Sunday, and it has been in my head ever since.

 We have launched into the world of Reproductive Endocrinology, and with each test result and each procedure, this is where I want my heart to be....fixing my gaze on God alone and trusting him completely. My heart longs to be a mother, and only God knows if that will ever happen. 

I will trust him completely. I will mourn the babies that we have lost. I will wait, and I will praise Him. 

Psalm 62 

For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken.
How long will all of you attack a man
to batter him,
like a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
They only plan to thrust him down from his high position.
They take pleasure in falsehood.
They bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse. Selah
For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from him.
He only is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
On God rests my salvation and my glory;
my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah
Those of low estate are but a breath;
those of high estate are a delusion;
in the balances they go up;
they are together lighter than a breath.
Put no trust in extortion;
set no vain hopes on robbery;
if riches increase, set not your heart on them.
Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
and that to you, O Lord, belongs steadfast love.
For you will render to a man
according to his work.